Banbogi

Is this a dream ? She asked I jumped to pinch her And her giggle echoed As if a distant voice Her smile The one with dimples Came and faded In front of my eyes Is this a dream ? She had asked Now that I think about it Perhaps it was But it felt a little more real Than the ones I saw Where I ran towards her To tell her things, choking my heart And her solace would embrace my pain I even forgot the count of How many times I've dreamed But that's the thing about dreaming  When one has dreamed a moment Over and over Again and again When that moment really comes Then that reality feels more surreal than dream itself To feel the same way She must have run towards me too With all her joys and worries But we never met Our paths only overlapped  In the virtual realm And when we did meet All we could ask each other was Is this a dream ?

I was scrolling through life Suddenly  My eyes fell on the clock Force of habit  Keeping track of time That I can never keep track of It was 12.45 And for one split second I felt it's still noon And in that split second It was the truth The line between reality And fiction blurred And I swear  For one split second  It was noon But then I warped Or so it seemed  Sleep oozed out of me Trotted out of the window  The curtain made way for it And someone mocked at me It was the dead of night  Not noon I knew it But sometimes you need to be told What you already know  It struck me then  What have I done ? I abandoned morning Night never really took me in Now I belong nowhere No time to call my own No place to call my own And humans must possess something  You know  Something that they call their own  A sense of belonging  That keeps them on this side Otherwise  They warp  And get swallowed  Where night really is no...

I welcomed you In my solitary abode And you seeped in Like spring Blossomed a blush A petal fell on my cheek You bloomed within me And I shrinked A beam of light Lightens the abyss Soon it will fade I whispered to me But your warmth Filled me with sweet greed To follow you To leave To fly To the place never within my reach How will I find you I have seen nothing  But your silhoutte  I have loved  Not more than the dust That lies under your bare foot So, feelings this shallow Reigning inside my head Still, I let myself lose In the hope That I'll find myself again Rather I drowned Deeper and deeper Wherever you led My heart bestowed admiration On my clumsy fate But should I tread the path That leads me to nowhere  Oh! I yearn to walk A little longer Just a little longer I yearn to walk Walk down that path The end I do not wish to see Then how dare I let myself be How do I tread If the end I do not wish to see I welcomed you All by myself Now I should see you to the doo...

There are days When am very scared Of myself There are days When am filled only  Hatred and Anger Those are the days I lock myself In the corner of my room I must not look into the eye I must not utter a word  I must not leave For there are thorns All over my body And I've long ceased to love So, I stay away From everyone  And everything  That I might hurt  What should I do With all this rage It's rotting me From inside I know for sure How ? You ask I know not But I can feel it One does after a while  I can feel that there is Something rotten inside me That something makes me cry Every now and then And when the tears Roll down my cheeks They burn the skin Now am tired Of everyone  And everything  Of fixing things Of keeping up Of running So, I sleep Sleep longer than usual Because as soon as I wake up The world is out to get me There are chores to do And people to talk to  But am tired Always So, I sleep  As long as I can And no I don't ...

Did you hear  The wind calling my name So dearly did it utter My happiness, I couldn't tame The birds heard it too And I looked above at the sky They tried to tell me  Didn't mean to pry For I don't understand  The language of the unknown  I forgot that they know Whenever in silence you groan Then the mighty lemon tree Called me in its embrace The thorns pierced my soul  Telling me of pain's grace  It listened to  All I had to say My whinings that  Gets lost in my dismay Showed me a broken nest The birds abandoned it and went "You're not lost without a home" Is perhaps what they meant There were the tall ones as well  (trees) But I couldn't reach them  One has to look in the eyes  To get across the mayhem  Of thoughts that went awry And I could follow none When it comes to me They all seem to be mistaken The wind came calling again Reminding me of my chores Blowing genlty all the while In the end one returns to  what one a...