I don't dream

There are days
When am very scared
Of myself
There are days
When am filled only 
Hatred and
Anger
Those are the days
I lock myself
In the corner of my room
I must not look into the eye
I must not utter a word 
I must not leave
For there are thorns
All over my body
And I've long ceased to love
So, I stay away
From everyone 
And everything 
That I might hurt 

What should I do
With all this rage
It's rotting me
From inside
I know for sure
How ?
You ask
I know not
But I can feel it
One does after a while 
I can feel that there is
Something rotten inside me
That something makes me cry
Every now and then
And when the tears
Roll down my cheeks
They burn the skin

Now am tired
Of everyone 
And everything 
Of fixing things
Of keeping up
Of running
So, I sleep
Sleep longer than usual
Because as soon as I wake up
The world is out to get me
There are chores to do
And people to talk to 
But am tired
Always
So, I sleep 
As long as I can
And no
I don't dream
Not anymore

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