Banbogi

In my dreams  I see these bizarre doors Always locked from the inside And a distorted figure Standing outside That would be me perhaps No, I am sure, that is me Definitely  Distorted Because one can't see  Oneself in the dreams Otherwise they break  Sometimes  I get close to the door Put my ears on it But the stench of silence  Engulfs me whole And I try to utter a distant name When the door opens Some unfamiliar syllables enter  And I runaway out of shame To ignore the fact That I am a liar Sometimes  I tremble with fear Too scared to shout I hear screams Crying my name aloud Another door opens A thick shadow darts out of it Looking for me But I warp and hide in a corner To ignore the fact That I am a coward Sometimes  I just stand in front of it Unable to move Then the next I remember  I am inside the room Fallen on the ground  Still unable to move Another shadow above me Trying to put its claws in my neck And I do not call for he...

Every person Who walks this solitary path Beside me  Behind me Or ahead of me With someone  Without someone  Is beautiful  Accidentally I stumbled  On their chest of secrets And whatever they saw in me  They opened it They let me hold it And carefully I did Close to my bosom Warm and wild Like an infant  Their stories and secrets lie In my two fragile hands  I stared in its deep dusky eyes And saw them fighting battles  Similar to those of mine Or perhaps different and brutal And they all came with a smile Similar to that of mine But perhaps wider and natural And then I handed it back And they locked it  And when I looked at them again They never seemed the same

Was that my light  That drew people in Like a moth They got dragged  Until it burned their skin Was that my darkness That engulfed their glitter How brightly they shone Before they got drowned  In a potion so sweet n bitter Was that my silence That made their ears bleed Such melodies they played Before it deaffend them And all merry things got buried Was that my solitude  That turned them morose All of them stumbled Got lost in the labyrinth  Whenever they tried to get close Was that my calm That ceased every delight  Made light hearts heavy And forced me to ask Has it always been my might Was that me The answer never came Only left me to roam alone  Till I learn well How these thoughts shall I tame

तुम चाहोगे बनना सहारा उसका वो सरहाने किताब रख कर सो लेगी और जो मांगो उससे वक्त उसका तो फिर अकेलेपन का बहाना छेड़ देगी तुम जो चाहो उसकी परेशानियों को  अपने आलिंगन में समेटना वो महज़ एक कागज़ पर  सारी चिंताएं बिखेर देगी और जो चाहो समझना उसको तो अपने मौन को वो ओढ़ लेगी तुम्हारे बढ़ाए हर कदम को सिर्फ़ इत्तेफ़ाक़ कह नज़रंदाज़ कर लेगी और जो निकले तलाश में उसकी तो साथ में भी ओझल-सी वो रह लेगी तुम ना कह सकोगे कुछ वो कहीं पीछे तुम्हें छोड़ देगी कहानी के शुरू होने से पहले ही वो हर किस्से को एक अधूरा मोड़ देगी                                                    -प्रावी