A soft slumber

 

It feels like a dream,
these past few months
Or did someone
put me in a trance
So much has happened
As if, nothing happened at all
I remember escaping
From one box to another
Travelled miles
But ended up in the same ditch
Again !
I remember staring
Deep into the oblivion
Trying to grab something
That was mine all along
But returned empty handed
Again !
I remember fighting numbness
That kept captive my very own soul
Drank potions of pain
For I was desperate
But couldn't feel anything
Again !
I remember looking at the mirror
In the dizzy morning
The reflection asked me
Who I was
And I couldn't answer it
Again !
I also remember falling
Down
Down
Down and
Down
Then I remember
No, I don't
My memory betrays me these days
All vague and distorted
How could yesterday feel so distant
While years reside in my palm
But why do I feel like
Someone's erasing my character
Slowly and carefully
Not leaving a single trace behind
Am I dead already
No, no,
That can't be true
My body is still here
If not then,
Am I still asleep ?
Is this really a dream ?
Oh! Then I will be glad
But it's too true
To be a dream
And too surreal
To be the truth
Then, am I floating
Somewhere on the border
That's daunting
Yet plausible
What to do now
I must drown
Into the depths of illusion
Or should I wait
Till I fall asleep
And wake up
Again !

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