SILENCE

As the sun goes down

And I sit, all alone in my room

Silence envelopes me

Like spring in full bloom

It dissolves in the air

Making it heavy and dense

Then lands on my shoulders

Announcing its presence

The arrival of silence

Is way too loud

I feel like burying my ears

Underneath a thick shroud

It throws words at me

Kind and unkind

Makes me utter thoughts

That I had left behind

Then it seeps in

Screaming inside my head

Trying to wake

All that is dead

I ignore it, fight it

And try to have my way

Before I finally let it be

I just push it away

Then it greets me softly 

Like a good old friend

Who kept me company

Wherever I couldn't blend

For Silence always found me

Trying to fit in the crowd

And has reminded me again n again

Of your individuality, you must be proud

It has always waited patiently

Whenever I go out

It knows I'll be needing its embrace

Without a doubt

Silence has been with me

For as long as I can remember

In all my darkness

It kept burning as an ember

It never leaves me alone

And brings guests everyday 

Grief and pain and fear 

Angst and regret and dismay

Then it brings comfort

And peace and excitement and joy

Lets me do the talking

Pretending to be coy

That's the thing about silence

It grows on you

And it starts filling your voids

Before you have the slightest clue

Therefore I love Silence

As much as am scared of it

What if it made me more content

In being aloof and a misfit

What if it gave me more peace

In being with myself

That I lose the need

And into someone else's depths

I no longer wanna delve

Should I hold its hands

Or keep it at bay

Should I drive it away

Or let it stay

I don't know for now

So I will wait

As always, there might be something

In the drawers of fate