Birthday

I've been counting the days down
For a while now
It's not that I want to
Or am excited or anything
My brain's doing it
Rather unknowingly
Old habits die hard 
They say
Well I just want to be done with it
As soon as possible
It would be too loud for an entire day
Rather chaotic
Then Quiet
For an entire year
When you have your headphones on
At full volume
And you suddenly remove them
That's the quiet
I am talking about

How do you wanna spend it
They asked
My friends
Yeah, strange isn't it
Not singular but plural
Somehow I ended up
with really good friends
So, I told them
I want it to be normal
It has always managed to end
Miserably well
Why waste the effort
(But they will try to make it special
As always)

And I told them 
Them
Not singular but plural
That am not fond of it 
I celebrate for celebration's sake
If people are putting so much effort
The very least I could do is to put on a smile
I don't even like the cake cutting thing
They were surprised
Then I said 
I don't like receiving flowers
Or a bouquet or anything like that either
They were surprised
Still
It's hard for humans to believe
When someone dislikes what they love
I understand

I don't truly say what I feel 
They said
Funny isn't it
I think I said a lot
Now it's their job 
To put the pieces together
And if they can't recognize the pattern
At least they could accept it

Anyways
People don't listen
Do they ?
So, I'll be putting on a dress
Which might not be 
considered modest by many
And I'll be making a wish
What do I wish for ?
I thought hard
And whispered
To be understood
( Not in the way one person
understands another
But the way I understand myself
The way I sometimes read the soul 
Of another as if it were my own)
And If that is possible
Then I might as well 
Blow out the candles 

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